A lot of curious or impressed onlookers slide into my DMs with questions about how exactly I came to possess my gaping hole. The short answer I give is that it comes with patience, poppers, and prayer. If you'd like to know more about the top three questions I get, keep reading. How long did it take to get to this point? While I've been interested in gaping for several years, the first time I took a fist (my own) was 10 years ago. I bought progressively larger plugs and toys, had my first fisting session with a friend, and decided this was the hobby for me. From the purchase of my first "specialty" toy (a Goliath 2XL ) to my current hole, it took about five years. Do you have any problems because of big toys? No. We're talking about muscles that I've spent years  strengthening, always  listening and heeding my limits. With apologies to those who fetishize my busted pussy, it returns to normal within an hour. The only difference is how quickly I can now go from...

  I finally got my hands (and boy pussy) on the Legendary Trotter  from All Night Toys. I'd been looking at this one for awhile and the Black Friday sale sealed the deal. The Legendary Trotter provides more than 13 inches of usable insertion and a medial ring topping out at 16 inches in circumference. At this size, it offers something for both a depth diva and a girth queen. Thankfully, I'm both of those things. My biggest toys are 15-16 inches in circumference, and so the head of Trotter (13 inches) should have been easy to take. However, the 00-30 Soft Firmness created its own challenge. Though still quite thick, Trotter instantly collapsed under my weight, leading to several hours of frustration and nearly giving up. To get around this issue, I wrapped a towel around Trotter's shaft. Not only did this create an exoskeleton, the fabric created friction that gave me something to hold onto. Between the needed stability and ability to pull myself onto something, I was finall...

I never enjoyed depth play, so the purchase of a 19-inch insertable toy called the Edgware from John Thomas Toys seemed a bit out of character for me. One of the most common questions I get from fans on X is how to take longer toys. Had you asked me five years ago, I would have brushed off the question as a self-proclaimed girth queen. Nonetheless, there came a moment when I realized that wider toys were also necessarily taller. I could no longer ignore one skill at the other's expense. Depth play is another game altogether; I warn readers that it can go terribly wrong, and that caution should always be taken when discovering the deep abyss of your body. No matter what the question, the answer almost always boils down to "practice, practice, practice," and making sure there's lots of lube on hand. That said, I learned a number of lessons in my deep exploration of my anus that may make your journey a bit easier. The first is the importance of learning your anatomy.  I...

Cetos 150 by Topped Toys My lubed ass lips are barely able to contain my rosebud by the time the Cetos 150 caresses the walls of my rectum. After nearly an hour of increasingly-extreme butt play, my hole is a wet, dripping chasm. The first four ridges pass without any semblance of resistance and then, grabbing the sides of the stool, I pull myself onto this monster of a toy until the final ridge pops into place. My hole is 15 inches wide and every square inch of my rectum filled with platinum-cured silicone. Moans of pleasure escape my throat and it's all I can do to ride this beast for 10 seconds before I jump off and expose my innards. The journey began in 2014. I noticed more often than not I'd affix the tag "gaping" to my gay porn searches. Watching a hard dick slide in and out of a welcoming hole was secondary to the delight I took in seeing the negative space left when the top pulled away. I knew I was innately a fist pig, though I'd yet to take more than fo...